I’ve been coming off SSRI meds (specifically, Fluoxetine) over the past almost 2 months now and I *think* I finally feel ‘normal’. But boy has it been a roller-coaster. I want to start out by saying I did not go cold turkey. I tapered off with guidance of a very expensive psychiatrist, my psychologist, and GP. I cut back to every second day, every third, and so on until it got down to once a week THEN I stopped completely. So when I talk about the two month time-frame, that’s two months without any dosage at all. Continue reading “Coming off SSRIs – a not so fun journey”
You asked for it! Everyone was keen to read about a day in my life. I mean, that *is* the name of my blog… so here goes! It’s not super exciting as I was mostly just working from home today. But this has been really beneficial for me, to help me realise I do actually get quite a lot done even when I don’t feel like I have.
4:30am – 8:30am
Awake due to my tiny bladder. Awake again, thanks to the cats being jerks and running around for past couple of hours. Awake again… bad stomach (made bad high FODMAP food choices last night for dinner). Alarm goes off… snooze for a bit.
Got out of bed, had a cup of tea + lactose free milk, attempt to tidy house as I go about my morning – make list of things I need to get done today. Consider ignoring phone call from builder about the new kitchen installation at our flat… Not actually all that stressful. Kitchen being sorted Wed/Thurs this week. Write email to landlord reminding him the shower head was meant to be replaced at the same time. Spent some time clearing emails. Arranged meeting with a colleague about study options to get into the Mental Health field (Tues). Check out yoga classes and add to calendar to potentially attend this evening.
Stuff to do today:
- Sort paperwork for WINZ
- Start bullet journal for this week
- Book yoga class???
I’m sad. I have the sads. I’m not doing well. Mentally. Physically. Anything-ly, right now. But, rather than cocooning myself away (which is what I really want to do…) I’m going to try really, really hard to self-care and get out of the house and do things that make me feel good.
Which, right now, means cutting back on site work a lot; I’ve given notice at one role… and am handing over another next week. It’s pretty hard not to feel like a failure right now. I’ve also applied for a sickness benefit/disability allowance. Worst thing, is I have to go to see WINZ on my birthday next week… or wait another week… even though I’d probably only have to work about 10 hours to earn the same amount. Yip. Life sucks sometimes.
On that note; not to sound pathetic, but if anyone has any remote-based graphic design work or data-entry/admin work… please let me know. I’d greatly appreciate it.
For the meantime, I’ll keep forcing myself to use the Headspace app for mindfulness, burning nice smelling incense, sniffing essential oils, getting out for walks, cuddling cats and watching scary movies.
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Everyone probably knows a little bit about Essential Oils (EO).
They’re generally seen as a bit hippy, or just nice smelly things that go in an oil burner or get added to massage oils. I used to have a bit of a collection of cheapie drug store oils for my burner. This was my only experience with oils, until recently when that all changed. Continue reading “Essential Oils”
Brain + Biopsy.
So, earlier this week I had to have a biopsy to check some pre-cancerous cells. I still haven’t received the results of that biopsy. Needless to say, this basically took over my life. Continue reading “Brains are dumb.”