TW⚠️: Disordered eating.
I’m having such a hard time with my brain lately in relation to food. I want to lose weight. I have IBS. I suffer from anxiety and depression. If I get too hungry, I get anxious and it causes my stomach to be upset because of too much stomach acid (a common trend in IBS sufferers). I can’t really skip breakfast as having no food makes me light headed.
Calorie counting hasn’t been super helpful in losing weight. I’ve tracked it for about a month now, and *usually* stick to 1300-1400 calories per day, with the occasional late night wine or cheese or candy addition. When my brain is depressed, it either wants to eat lots, or wants to eat nothing.
Here are some other food-related thoughts from my silly nerveblob* of a brain: I don’t like to eat red meat, but I need iron. I try to eat only chicken and seafood, but sometimes beef mince is heaps cheaper.
- I want to eat ethically farmed animals, but I can’t always afford that.
- I hate disposable plastic, but sometimes there’s no easy option for buying meats.
- I want to be vegetarian or vegan, but I have such a limited diet I need meat for the nutrients/protein.
- I need to eat more raw fruit & vegetables, but they take time to prepare & potato chips or cheese & crackers & canned tuna is easier.
- I wanted to grow my own vegetables, all I’ve got from the garden is radishes, cucumbers & lettuce, oh and TWO tomatoes off 4 plants.
*Credit to Neil Hughes for the nerveblob quote